A New Dilemma

Is it better to feel pain, grief, sadness?
To be self loathing, feel the fear, give in to the thoughts to be self injurious?
At least I would be able to feel something.

The dull mind numbing sensation that has taken over my body is unnerving.
It’s as if there is nothing more than a broken, empty shell left behind.
I’m beginning to understand their plight more and more for it has become my own.

-Me